life has changed

I met a liar before
He betrayed and deceited me.
I didnt cry
But my heart broke out
He really got on my nerves
He really annoyed me
I'm just angry
All my trust on him were wasted and disappeared
Since that day,
I began not to believe someone easily
I will not to express my heart to anyone else
I swore on that day

Start from f4
I found out many people had changed to me
I heard a lot of rumours
It complicated my mind and i'm nearly couldnt differentize who is telling the truth or just some nonsense
I'm lost
I'm tryin to neglect it and pretend to know nothing
but i cant
Its still tortured my heart

I couldnt join into certain friend's world
I'm already tried my best
I tried to follow their topic
I'm tryin to be nicer and changed
However
I'm still myself
who is unacceptable to them
I'm sorry
I knew somebody look at me with different eyes
I knew something inside their heart
They hid it
I knew its bad to me
But i couldnt understand
Why cant they just pour it out and straight to me
Better than pretend