Letter

Grandpa:

         I went for dinner tonight in Yong Hua Restaurant and I bought fried chicken for the first time since I was back from National Service.My habit had changed and it was totally different with what I had when I was young.The memories flowed out of my recesses of mind and made me recollected the moments with you. I still remembered that you preferred its famous fish head porridge  Time had passed in the blink of eyes and memories had disappeared gradually.

      How long from now since you were gone?I couldnt recollect it well.Haha! I was so addicted to sweets since I was small.What I usually did was stealing sweets from refrigerator stealthily which I thought no one had seen it,but unfortunately,you did it always.You were often irritated and what was the ramification?I was scolded and this perturbed me.You were  very strict and stringent  to me at that time.However,I realised the benefits now.If you werent controlling me well,I guessed I had suffered from diabetes by now.I could not hear any scolding words from you anymore and advices from you had skimped off from my live.

    The moment when you suffered from stroke seemed so shocking news for me. Watching a person from quivering to shivering,from talking lots to groaning and becoming silence seemed so unforgetable to me.Your face turned pale,sweats rolling down your cheek like rain flowing in its gutter,you were trying to unleash your agony but you couldnt.It was so sufferable and torturing.Since then,I could no longer hear your voice as you were only managed to give off some sound like a baby who were about start to learn some words.

   That was the moment which I reminisced the most after you had become silence.After moving to a brand new house,you indulged yourself in gardening.The poor and lacking land had now become an invigorate and lively garden with your hands ,sweats and determination.Grandma always scolded you when you spent lots of your time to build a long but narrow pathway across the land. Sometimes,I could not understand too.Laying the bricks and rocks you had collected one by one no matter how old you were and how much time you had spent seemed so squaring time to me.Obviously,this had helped people who lived in the opposite site of land a lot as they wouldnt need to turn a big round to come here.You were the one who comforted me a lot while I was sad and moody.Your big hands were so warm and this feeling filled and softened my heart,it was like a cuddle.We often sit in the round-swing and watched the starry night together.Although you could not speak out your mind,sitting beside and accompanying me was really enough to me.

    I was having exam at that time.Or I finished it?I had forgotten.I was rushed to hospital and mum told me that you were waiting for me. Wearing a mask over my mouth,disinfecting my hands,putting on the purple coat.I entered ICU,full of medicine smell.Observing your swollen body,I had nothing to say.Numerous questions popping out in my mind.Grandma told me that you had been waiting for me since morning.I could not control my tears anymore .Crying,wailing and holding your hands.Vaguely,there were some droplets at the side of your eyes.I had reached by your side finally.Driblets of life had slipped across your hands and body slowly and slowly.This process left a significant remark in my mind till today.Hovering between living and death seemed so miserable.You winced.Definitely it was painful.What daunting was the pain would spread over your body and conquered your conscious.

That was the first time I dealing and facing death in my life.So helpless and hopeless.Leaves from tree of living had turned yellowish, dropped onto the ground one by one,however it would ultimately swept away by a cleaner,new and fresh leaves would replace it.I could not think it that further so I was just crying and crying.

We could not stop the flowing of death in our life
May no one dies,may no new life forms.

We only live once
But if you do it right,once is enough-MaeWest

The precious but unforgettable lessons you had brought.
Are you fine and peaceful in heaven?
I'm sure you are as it's a place free from sufferings.
Although you were only nanny to me since I was small,you were the exact Grandpa for me.Ah Gong
That was what I want to say.
                                                                                                                    Ming yi.