Wishes for 18 years old

1.I want to train to sleep alone
2.I want to score in my SPM result
3.I can pass through all challenges in PLKN
4.I can live happily with my family and friends
5.I have the courage to chase for my future
6.I can be more mature
7.I can be more independent
8.My friends will be able to find their other half
9.5A1 reunite again
10.Successful in my life
11.Enjoy the present,letting go the past
12.Overcome hydrophobia
13.Living no worries

Hymn to hope

曾经
我很开朗，也很主动
有那么一股热诚与勇气
与别人攀谈
我一直相信
一段友情只要有一方主动，那么那段友情一定可以萌芽,甚至绽放
我也一直相信
只要我用真心去对待，多多关心，那么别人一定会明白

但我发现
我错了
曾经我的天真
原来是那么无知

去年的年尾
我顿悟
有时候关心可以是一种负担
有时候没有理由的道歉也无法让人理解
有时候相识交谈可以在一天之内被瓦解

我真的不明白
我那时候犯了什么错
到现在
我依然无法获得解释
也丧失了那股勇气

Leaving

  It's time for me to pack up my stuff and prepare for my national service for three months.Seriously,i'm still totally blanked for what i gonna prepare and  what to bring along with.Instead of anxiety and sadness,i''m filled with happiness and joy.Wasted a lot of precious  time throughout the holiday,i treated it as the way of relaxation.Lying on my bed,sitting on my chair,facing my own pc,watching television,and even surfing net for the whole day,to me,they are rather than reading pre-u text books and searching for colleges information.I was reluctant to fill my brain with those trouble-some information or worry again about my SPM.I wasn't confident with it.I think i HAD NOT do well.

   Three months maybe long ,maybe short,depends on how i enjoy my national service.Treat it like attending a course and playing in the end-year camp.I believe and keep comforting myself that i'm able to adapt to new environment.Perhaps it's rural,perharps the food is so terrible or perhaps i will meet with crazy instructors or maybe i will be boikot by others.I think i can go through all of it safely,right?I want to be more independent,more mature and more considerate.I prayed for myself.I can go happily and back happily and safely.Bring more Buddha picture and pray more.This was what others advised.

  What actually i worried  was CAN I LIVE WITHOUT THOSE ELECTRONIC PRODUCTS,SOCIAL NET?I am not confident with myself.It would make me feel weird like a worm in my body if i dont use facebook for one day.Maybe this can be an opportunity for me to get rid from becoming a social-web addict.I WILL BE DARK AND SUNBURN MAYBE HAPPENS ! i'm totally afraid of scorching sun which is so torturing and horrible.I dont want to be looked like malays !What a big problem!!!!!!I maybe flabbergasted of the environment especially worms~

   I still need to accept the truth.Create a possible thinking.National service is a chance for me to change a different perspective for my life despite all worries and fear.

Anxiety and Stress

  Anxiety and stress are interconnected.Once you have anxiety for a long time,you do not cope well with it,then it turns to stress.Then,if you do not endure with stress well,those mental sickness such as depression,psychosis would approach you and befriend with you.

  However,if anxiety and stress applied do not exceed the withstandable limit,they do help  us a lot in our daily.They can perform as motivation,encourage and given us the enery to fight for what we want and be whom we would like to be.

  The function of anxiety produced by our body regulatory centre is actually to prepare us for external situation which may jeopardise our life.However,if we do not adapt to the external environment well and easily give up to the challenges,continuing stress may lead us to death or commit suicide.
  
   So,learn to relax and cope well with stress.If not,you would be like me last time.Tie up yourself tightly ,squeeze yourself so that you wont have a single chance to gasp for air

Self esteem

Confidence is a cleanser
Clears away the dirt and dust in your heart

Agitates the grease stuck to your soul
Forming a pure and beautiful spirit

Confidence is a leader
Leads you to the pathway of success
Motivates you to climb the mountain
Encourages you to get through thistle and thorns 
Helps you achieve the peak of your life

I was once lack of self confidence
Living under others' expectation and hope
Longing for others' attraction but ignored my true self
When you meet such trauma and difficulties
Leave away,escape from it
No one could change your personality and look down on you
Respect your pride
YOU WOULD BE ABLE TO CREATE MIRACLE

Act as if what you do makes a difference.It does~William james

Hide away

I could see
The sorrow hidden in her eyes
I could feel
The loneliness in her soul
I could understand
How reluctant she was to accept the truth
I could read
How frustrated and devastated she was when she was destined to separate with her beloved
I knew
She longed for true and forever friendship
To her
Concern and love from friends could calm her mind,soothe her soul
She clasped for a simple happiness
Without any fame and lies as decoration
She did not realise
Time passed in a blink of eyes,too fast until it slipped away without her knowledge
She was regretful
Why didnt she discover the importance of her friends when there was still time left
Why didnt she stay longer and together more with her friends during school time
Everything is too late
Hence
She have decided to let everything go
She wants to appreciate every moment with her friends when there is time left
She will be more sincere and express all her hidden feelings
She is a mirror
reflects myself

终于，我选择欢笑来结束我的中学生涯

三个小时前，我，毕业了！

在这之前，曾经被人估计，会在毕业典礼上大哭特哭，崩溃落泪的我
却
异常奇迹的
没有哭泣，甚至连半点悲伤，emo 都没有出现在我的脸上
我还是疯狂地玩，快乐地拍照
越拍越多，脸部肌肉都酸痛抽筋！我甚至一度地笑到僵硬，休息

毕业
没有离别的不舍
因为我们明天还会再见面
没有分离的伤痛
因为我们在12月3日之前还是会在一起
虽然在那期间
我们得面对考试的重重考验

我的中学生涯
很幸运地
没有风风雨雨的打击
却有着满满的甜蜜回忆
没有背叛欺骗的痛苦
只有朋友们的挺身而出
没有失恋分手的哀伤
只有若隐若离的好感
青春岁月的美好
却是人生中唯一的昙花一现

虽然有遗憾
但那股缺陷美
 点缀了我丰富的人生

毕业不是结束
是我另一段的开始
毕业不是分离
是心里永远存在的5a1

终于，我选择了欢笑来结束我的中学生涯
并带着朋友们的深深祝贺
来迎接我的下一段人生

曾经（朋友）

我不会忘记
曾经有一群好友
他们虽然常对我冷嘲热讽，甚至不常发简讯
不过
在我情绪紧绷，不安沮丧的时候
这群老友总会是第一个紧张的一群

我不会忘记
曾经有一群跆拳道社的小辈与好友
虽然我对他们认识不久，
不过
在比赛，无聊的时候
这群朋友总会给予我鼓励，给予我掌声

我不会忘记
有一群学会的热心人士
我们相处的时间虽然大多与学会有关
不过
这群人总是伴着我一起成长，学习，度过中学生涯的漫长岁月

我不会忘记
有一群辩论高手
虽然我不是辩论的专才，甚至不常参与他们
不过
他们教会我许多，在他们身上，我看见了热诚，自信与勇敢

我不会忘记
有一群住在远方的朋友
虽然我们年龄不同，相处时间只有每年的三天
不过
这群人从来没有把我忘记，甚至对我的热情还是一如往常的浓烈

我不会忘记
有一群同班的老友鬼鬼
虽然我常被骂“疯婆子”
不过
这群老友总是包容着我的幼稚，情绪， 有点骄傲的脾气与暴力

我不会忘记
有一群与我有过节的朋友
虽然我不是很爽你们，我们的关系还是一样的疏远
不过
我感谢你们让我有那么一丝机会
看见自己的不是

我不会忘记
有那么一群朋友
给我鼓励，给我温暖
让我学习，让我奋斗
让我在情绪不稳定的时候 ，给我肩膀，撑着我的背后
让我在学习上勇于挑战自己，给我向前冲的动力

加油！朋友

毕业

毕业这一词，在我脑海里其实不曾出现过，甚至连闪过的念头都没有，不过，至今它却无声无息地接近我，让我连逃避的机会都没有.....

今天的日期-2012年9月17日，距离毕业典礼的日子还剩下1个月又14天，我天天在倒数
SPM固然令人胆战心惊，但毕业却比它来得更令人措手不及
时间太快，它就如你手中的水，尽管你拼命想抓住它，终有一天，它会溜走
该失去的总会失去，该离开的总会离开

正如考试题目的一句“正是这片叶子的凋零，才换来整棵大树的茂密生机”
中五的我们，是时候脱离学校的保护伞，努力开拓自己的未来

这道理谁都明白，但实行起来，却异常不容易
五年了，呆了五年的学校，纵然我们常常对它颇有微词，有时讽刺，有时投诉
但，谁的心里对它没感情？
学校是第二个家
我高度忍同
以前年少的自己，常向往自己的成长，常憧憬自己的未来
现在的自己，却希望时间永远停留在中五中四的时候
无数的回味，无数的逃避，却终究逃不过现实的无奈

撇开身理的长大不谈，说穿了我们只是孩子
谁想要面对现实，残酷的世界？
谁想要天天为孩子，家计，生活费担忧？
我但愿我永远只是中学生，我但愿我无需毕业

与朋友分开
那是毕业的残酷
相处了五年的朋友
不管同班与否，感情深厚与否，过节隔阂与否
时光匆匆溜走
十年以后
我们连斗嘴，吵闹的机会都失去了
年少的过节可以让时间冲淡，甚至一个瞬间都可以让它消失
但
社会上的过节所带来的后果可令你跌得粉身碎骨，心痛如彻
社会上大家都要带面具示人
五光十色，复杂万分

九月，十月
细细观察这所国中
仔细寻觅班上所坐过的每一个座位，玩闹的每一个角落
呼吸校园里的每一口空气
毕业典礼上
拥抱每一位朋友吧~

停下~2

生活中太多烦恼，太多琐事
常常情绪暴躁，惊慌失措，迷惘茫然
人们太多目标，太多任务，太多需承受的压力与期许
那眼中的寄托不知不觉早已变成奢望与负担
爬啊爬，宁愿流得全身血，累得一觉都不得安睡
但人类从未想过
停下吧！休息吧！
何必将自己弄得那么累
为何不想过，养精蓄锐？
停下
并非意味着停止不懈
只是在生活中的驿站
 抚慰那累坏的心
累了，就睡吧

停下

我习惯独来独往，放学时独自坐着，看看来往的人与事
不时扑鼻的引擎味，闪过的人影
愿意停下的却没有几个
“愿意停下，坐在你身旁的，在他心中，你有一定的地位。”-结论
 当个独行侠没什么不好
自己努力地活着，奋斗着
但哀
累了，却没有一个愿意停下让你靠的肩膀
所有的酸，痛，苦，甜，就只有你一个撑着
所谓知音
少之又少
因此不渴望，不奢求，就不会失望
还未碰到前，自己活着吧
好友，一个就够了，太多只会累赘自己

下一个突破

I hope and i wish
Every day is a totally new life
 Life will become more meaningful
AND
undergo improvement

Challenges and distortment
Here i come
Let's battle!
I cant assure that i will success
But you guys will not have even a single chance
To slink into my life
Fight!against you!Ready to go

Happiness
I am heading towards you
I can see you are waving your hands and beckoning me to come to you
I promise
I will try hard to go to you
Hold your hands
even though there are wounds,scatches
I am waiting for that day
The day when you colour my monotonous life
when you accompany me to continue my journey

Friends
I am changing
To be a more mature girl
To be more humble and compassionate
Even though you hate me or dislike my style
Please leave my life and disappear from my sight
So that i wont block you way and make you feel disgusting
However
The person who is going to leave is you!
NOT  me
I will remain standing here
and
Work hard
No matter who you are

说服

说服自己
克服恐惧
面对挑战
迈向未来
追求美梦
强化自己
革除旁观
摒弃缪言
充实自己
引向成功！！！