Leaving

  It's time for me to pack up my stuff and prepare for my national service for three months.Seriously,i'm still totally blanked for what i gonna prepare and  what to bring along with.Instead of anxiety and sadness,i''m filled with happiness and joy.Wasted a lot of precious  time throughout the holiday,i treated it as the way of relaxation.Lying on my bed,sitting on my chair,facing my own pc,watching television,and even surfing net for the whole day,to me,they are rather than reading pre-u text books and searching for colleges information.I was reluctant to fill my brain with those trouble-some information or worry again about my SPM.I wasn't confident with it.I think i HAD NOT do well.

   Three months maybe long ,maybe short,depends on how i enjoy my national service.Treat it like attending a course and playing in the end-year camp.I believe and keep comforting myself that i'm able to adapt to new environment.Perhaps it's rural,perharps the food is so terrible or perhaps i will meet with crazy instructors or maybe i will be boikot by others.I think i can go through all of it safely,right?I want to be more independent,more mature and more considerate.I prayed for myself.I can go happily and back happily and safely.Bring more Buddha picture and pray more.This was what others advised.

  What actually i worried  was CAN I LIVE WITHOUT THOSE ELECTRONIC PRODUCTS,SOCIAL NET?I am not confident with myself.It would make me feel weird like a worm in my body if i dont use facebook for one day.Maybe this can be an opportunity for me to get rid from becoming a social-web addict.I WILL BE DARK AND SUNBURN MAYBE HAPPENS ! i'm totally afraid of scorching sun which is so torturing and horrible.I dont want to be looked like malays !What a big problem!!!!!!I maybe flabbergasted of the environment especially worms~

   I still need to accept the truth.Create a possible thinking.National service is a chance for me to change a different perspective for my life despite all worries and fear.