Wishes for 18 years old

1.I want to train to sleep alone
2.I want to score in my SPM result
3.I can pass through all challenges in PLKN
4.I can live happily with my family and friends
5.I have the courage to chase for my future
6.I can be more mature
7.I can be more independent
8.My friends will be able to find their other half
9.5A1 reunite again
10.Successful in my life
11.Enjoy the present,letting go the past
12.Overcome hydrophobia
13.Living no worries

Hymn to hope

曾经
我很开朗，也很主动
有那么一股热诚与勇气
与别人攀谈
我一直相信
一段友情只要有一方主动，那么那段友情一定可以萌芽,甚至绽放
我也一直相信
只要我用真心去对待，多多关心，那么别人一定会明白

但我发现
我错了
曾经我的天真
原来是那么无知

去年的年尾
我顿悟
有时候关心可以是一种负担
有时候没有理由的道歉也无法让人理解
有时候相识交谈可以在一天之内被瓦解

我真的不明白
我那时候犯了什么错
到现在
我依然无法获得解释
也丧失了那股勇气

Leaving

  It's time for me to pack up my stuff and prepare for my national service for three months.Seriously,i'm still totally blanked for what i gonna prepare and  what to bring along with.Instead of anxiety and sadness,i''m filled with happiness and joy.Wasted a lot of precious  time throughout the holiday,i treated it as the way of relaxation.Lying on my bed,sitting on my chair,facing my own pc,watching television,and even surfing net for the whole day,to me,they are rather than reading pre-u text books and searching for colleges information.I was reluctant to fill my brain with those trouble-some information or worry again about my SPM.I wasn't confident with it.I think i HAD NOT do well.

   Three months maybe long ,maybe short,depends on how i enjoy my national service.Treat it like attending a course and playing in the end-year camp.I believe and keep comforting myself that i'm able to adapt to new environment.Perhaps it's rural,perharps the food is so terrible or perhaps i will meet with crazy instructors or maybe i will be boikot by others.I think i can go through all of it safely,right?I want to be more independent,more mature and more considerate.I prayed for myself.I can go happily and back happily and safely.Bring more Buddha picture and pray more.This was what others advised.

  What actually i worried  was CAN I LIVE WITHOUT THOSE ELECTRONIC PRODUCTS,SOCIAL NET?I am not confident with myself.It would make me feel weird like a worm in my body if i dont use facebook for one day.Maybe this can be an opportunity for me to get rid from becoming a social-web addict.I WILL BE DARK AND SUNBURN MAYBE HAPPENS ! i'm totally afraid of scorching sun which is so torturing and horrible.I dont want to be looked like malays !What a big problem!!!!!!I maybe flabbergasted of the environment especially worms~

   I still need to accept the truth.Create a possible thinking.National service is a chance for me to change a different perspective for my life despite all worries and fear.

Anxiety and Stress

  Anxiety and stress are interconnected.Once you have anxiety for a long time,you do not cope well with it,then it turns to stress.Then,if you do not endure with stress well,those mental sickness such as depression,psychosis would approach you and befriend with you.

  However,if anxiety and stress applied do not exceed the withstandable limit,they do help  us a lot in our daily.They can perform as motivation,encourage and given us the enery to fight for what we want and be whom we would like to be.

  The function of anxiety produced by our body regulatory centre is actually to prepare us for external situation which may jeopardise our life.However,if we do not adapt to the external environment well and easily give up to the challenges,continuing stress may lead us to death or commit suicide.
  
   So,learn to relax and cope well with stress.If not,you would be like me last time.Tie up yourself tightly ,squeeze yourself so that you wont have a single chance to gasp for air

Self esteem

Confidence is a cleanser
Clears away the dirt and dust in your heart

Agitates the grease stuck to your soul
Forming a pure and beautiful spirit

Confidence is a leader
Leads you to the pathway of success
Motivates you to climb the mountain
Encourages you to get through thistle and thorns 
Helps you achieve the peak of your life

I was once lack of self confidence
Living under others' expectation and hope
Longing for others' attraction but ignored my true self
When you meet such trauma and difficulties
Leave away,escape from it
No one could change your personality and look down on you
Respect your pride
YOU WOULD BE ABLE TO CREATE MIRACLE

Act as if what you do makes a difference.It does~William james

Hide away

I could see
The sorrow hidden in her eyes
I could feel
The loneliness in her soul
I could understand
How reluctant she was to accept the truth
I could read
How frustrated and devastated she was when she was destined to separate with her beloved
I knew
She longed for true and forever friendship
To her
Concern and love from friends could calm her mind,soothe her soul
She clasped for a simple happiness
Without any fame and lies as decoration
She did not realise
Time passed in a blink of eyes,too fast until it slipped away without her knowledge
She was regretful
Why didnt she discover the importance of her friends when there was still time left
Why didnt she stay longer and together more with her friends during school time
Everything is too late
Hence
She have decided to let everything go
She wants to appreciate every moment with her friends when there is time left
She will be more sincere and express all her hidden feelings
She is a mirror
reflects myself